A few days later, he came to me in a dream. He looked just the same as he was in my grade 13. He didn’t say anything, but it was a nice dream. I woke up with a warm feeling inside me and wondered about what it all meant. A few days later, I saw a rose, felt a kiss on my cheek and heard a voice saying: “I love you.”
Mr. Price was with me from Spirit! As I later learned, he had been in Spirit for about three years and wanted to find me. Apparently, he too was in love with me! I could not believe it! We talked. I asked him quite flirtatiously, to write me a poem to tell me how he felt about me. He did not write a poem, but directed me to Shakespeare’s Sonnet 29. It goes, in part, like this:
When in disgrace with Fortune and men’s eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
And trouble deaf Heav’n with my bootless cries,
And look upon myself and curse my fate.
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at Heaven’s gate.
For thy sweet love remembered
Such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change
My state with kings.
The poem is quite easy to understand. It refers to our grade 13 year. He had had a difficult life being gay. Fifty years ago, it was a big deal. But when he thought about my love (which was written all over my face), he was happy.
He loved me too! I couldn’t believe it!
Why then did God allow him to be gay? Why not letting us get married and live happily ever after?
There are two possible answers: Either I would be so happy for the rest of my life, I would never learn about Spirit and my life’s purpose would have never been fulfilled. Or, if I had to go through all those Negativity attacks and hospital stays, I would have ruined his life. And, if we had any children, I would have ruined their lives too. And out of guilt, I would most probably committed suicide and ruined my life too.
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I don’t regret my life; I wouldn’t change a minute of it. I have learned about life everlasting and I am able to share it with others. And, in the end, I am with Mr. Price too.
We have a wonderful life together. He comes to see me practically every night and brings me love. A love I can feel! It is the strongest feeling of peace and happiness that I have ever felt. He tells me he loves me. He kisses me on the face. The only thing that’s missing is the physical closeness. But the spiritual closeness is even better! I feel alive! I feel the happiest that I have ever been!
